Supernaturally Equipped [part one]

Lately, I’ve been stuck in this wallow of pregnancy, and pregnancy woes. I’m not a huge fan of being uncomfortable or being in pain and after so many days, weeks, months, I get worn pretty thin. As a result I left some of my given authority [from Jesus] at the bedside and accepted things as the "natural" course or as the inevitable. That right there was my biggest mistake. Long before I got pregnant this time the Lord promised me this pregnancy. He promised me the redemption of what was lost in my first pregnancy and the blessing of a child long awaited for and what almost seemed impossible [with a husband gone for all but two weeks of the year] And YES it was a prophetic promise, much like that of Abraham's or of the Israelites' coming out of bondage into the promise land, on a much smaller scheme of things [I mean for us it was one child, not a nation, but still just as important to me…why because Jesus He cares about what I care about] Not only did He promise me the gift of this child, He declared over it that it would be FUN and full of life and joy and ease. My dear friends, these past several weeks and months have not been fun, in any of even the lightest interpretation of what He declared over me.

By faith I expected to get pregnant, and by God’s faithfulness I did. However, along the way I gave up some of that blessing, some of my very own inheritance from the Kingdom of Heaven, by believing and lying complacent to the things deemed “natural” by this world. Which there are natural laws of this Earth, you throw something up it comes down, you grow a person in your body you get bigger and could conclude more uncomfortable. Here is the problem with that being the said all. God created this world. HE determines the course of this world. He parted the red seas. He fed a nation in the dessert for 40 years. When three boys challenged the king and were thrown into fire, HE stood with them untouched and unburned. He raises the dead from the grave. Calms the seas, and then walks on them. Those my dear friends are not feats of this natural world. [Believe me I’ve tried walking on water; it doesn’t work, not even if you go really fast…]

All that to say two nights ago, the Lord brought to mind, [okay it started more than two nights ago…that still prodding voice of the Holy Spirit, it took me until two nights ago to actually LISTEN <>STORY OF MY LIFE, I’m kind of an idiot sometimes] So, I sat there, in my favorite pregnancy spot in the universe my big beautiful bath tub and confessed I’ve allowed this world to dictate more than enough of this pregnancy as “normal” and not held tightly to the promises my King laid before me and in turn surrendered my gift, my inheritance, my birthright as a child of God, to the Enemy and THEN well I TOOK. IT. BACK. Nothing like the power of Christ. (: I renounced, rebuked, and declared over myself and my body the promises He made over me.

That means :: NO HEARTBURN. NO ACID REFLUX [which here I should elaborate, I have not held a single meal down in WEEKS, my “nausea” more politely said, has been at an ALL TIME HIGH waking me up in the middle of the night, in the mornings, after sitting or bending down or standing or breathing, anytime there is any amount of food in my small cramped stomach]. NO SWELLING. NO BACK AND LEG SPASISMS. BEING ABLE TO BREATHE.

Right then and there my heartburn went away. I’ve never had such immediate healing. [You know expecting and believing by faith gets you pretty far but it’s not a cure all He is the Almighty HE does what HE wills when He wants to do it for reasons that in my limited capacity cannot always understand] Since, that night I have also not thrown up. Friends, believe me when I say that is no coincidence. I have not gone 24 hours without throwing up since I’ve approached the onset of my third trimester (so before 28wks and I am now over 35) and starting that night when I get heartburn and rebuke it in the name of Jesus and declare over myself that which He has promised that I am healed and whole that it immediately dissipates (when not Tums, not Prilosec, not Zantac, not any medication has offered any small feat of relief) that is miraculous. If you could feel the intense burning in my throat and chest go from on fire to nothing with the mention of the Name, Jesus… I’m telling you it causes you to pause. Now, my heartburn has crept back a couple times still, but each time I’ve prayed its gone away, sometimes completely other times it becomes so faint I barely notice it [again the cure all for healing, I don’t know. What it is or why? But I do know that Jesus is the one thing that seems to put it at bay and its gotten less and less frequent and intense since I’ve started doing this]. The rest of my symptoms have gotten better, not completely gone, but I would say 75%-90% better [so I’m much more comfortable] in all the areas I was struggling with [and that is 75-90% healing I didn’t have a couple days ago, I WILL TAKE IT… and well press in for more ha ha ha].

I think it’s interesting the amount of authority the Lord gives us that we just don’t tap into and well more or less surrender. You know when Jesus died on the cross He took all our sins. That means past, present, and future. They are all forgiven. I don’t believe a person can lose their salvation. I don’t believe we [even our choice] has that much power. I believe that when Jesus said no one can take you out of My hand {John 10}, He indeed meant NO ONE, not even us in our own willfulness and rebellious nature (I do not think I or we are more powerful than the Almighty God, I don't think I can take myself out of His hand). I think its more like when Paul states {1 Corinthians 3} that we will escape death as if barely escaping the flames of a burning building, saved, but left with nothing else to show for ourselves.

and this is where I break. part two coming sooner or later. i'm tired. back to bed for me. i wanted to keep it shorter so you'd read it ;)