Its quite remarkable. After 6 years in the military I've managed to walk in so much favor and blessing that I would almost claim I've had it easy as a military spouse. Now Sam has been deployed two out of those years, been to probably close to another year in schools, jumps, and training that's taken him to and fro our homestead, but he has managed to be here for the birth of our son (and soon to be daughter) and been relatively constant in our lives... and for when he hasn't I have always had somewhere to run and crash [a la casa de Chaput aka Mommy and Daddy hahahaha] or someone to coerce into coming and staying with me for extend periods of time [mainly Sharon, my wonderful mother in law, or my father]
Hubby is due to attend ALC [advance leaders course] and his set date only 6 days after poor miss Charlotte is suppose to approach this world? Yes that would be correct. Now, depending on when she arrives, that date could possibly be pushed back... but either way looks like my man soon after the birth of our second child, after only being home for a matter of months from Iraq, will be attending a two month [three months if he has to go over Christmas because of course? they take a break] long school to advance his leadership skills [that really is useless to us since we're getting out of the Army, but that's how the Army rolls].
I've always had lots and lots of people and places to lean on and take as much support as I needed... and for the first time since I've married Sam in May of 2005 my options are limited. Now, don't get me wrong it was inevitable. As everyone continues to grow and expand including our own household... I mean we are the ideal guests.... Lets see. A toddler. A newborn. Me. OH, and let's not forget the 80lb Golden Retriever that comes along with us. :P As mom and dad's house is at a maximum [As the other Chaputs move in here in just a few weeks]... I don't feel quite comfortable imposing my household on anyone else. You know its a matter of how wildly inconvenient you can be. It's like with parents the more you impose the more they love you. I don't really feel at ease putting that burden on anyone else. Plus there is just the matter of sheer space, and we pack quite the punch over here now with approaching two children and a dog...
So looks like I will be camping out with my two kids good ol Army style. I'm sure I can recruit someone to come visit for a decent amount of time, but let's be honest fall and Christmas isn't the most low key time of year. It just makes me sad that Sam had to miss a whole year of Gavin's life, the first half of the pregnancy wasn't that big of a deal, but the first couple months of Charlotte's life? That just seems cruel. It seems wildly unfair that he is stateside yet, he will miss on the more crucial and most dramatic changes of Charlotte's short life. I mean at least after six months they slightly slow down... but those first months every day is like a year. Not to mention after 6 weeks Gavin slept through the night, and here's hoping Charlotte will too... it would be nice to be able to get some sleep. However, it comes with the territory, we did after all sign up voluntarily. And I am not an Army hater. It's been so good to us, even with all the hardships.
I suppose this all is just one more reason why I am thankful the Lord has provided us a different path then the military. I'm blessed that for almost every training and deployment I've had some where to retreat and someone to come aid. All in all I've had it exceptionally good. We've had it easy to come home or easy to bring home to us, and as that gets a little bit harder, I'm more and more thankful home is not that too far off [hoping Sam finds a job there]. Either way, the months and years of training and sacrificing are coming to a close. I couldn't be more excited to get this season over.
Until then, I firmly trust and stand in the promises of my Lord. He does all things for His glory and my benefit. Even the hard times or unpleasant surprises [even if I cry the whole time], He has never overlooked a second of my life, I don't believe He just started. So, Lord as always I trust you to either work it out, or bless me as I endure it :) I don't believe my favor has run out. It might just be coming to me in a whole new light.
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